Re: The Claims And Beliefs Stated On This Website

I no longer believe some of the stuff that I have written on this website over the many months through which I have been updating it

Over the past few months my understanding of things has advanced and grown stronger and sharper - and as that happened it has become apparent that some of the things I said are simply not true and do not represent the claims I want make about myself and about reality

I have left certain ideas and beliefs behind as my journey has progressed and they no longer represent me.

I have therefore condensed the main claims I have made on this website on a single page, which you can go to by following this link

Coming soon.......

Do I believe the things I have written on this website?

I did when I wrote them

Looking back, I think I got some things right but that with other things I was mistaken

Perhaps I went too far with some things, such as some of my claims about the scope and importance of Madaba, which I am beginning to think goes too far

So right now I believe a lot of the things I said but others, not so much!

In the future I will set out my specific claims in a specific blog post

I will detail exactly what I believe

To make things more clear

And I will then state what I don't believe

All that will be coming soon

But I will keep all my old content up, as it represents the things I did used to believe

I am considering marking those old pages and posts with a legacy disclaimer, referring to my statement of beliefs (that I am going to write)

I will explain it all

But not right now, some other time

But that's what's coming here next

no plans for any new content

I have decided to stop updating this website as much as I have done in the past

I'm taking a break from it to peruse other projects elsewhere

Right now I have no plans for any new content

Everything I wrote was consistent with what I believed and understood when I wrote it but maybe my beliefs and understanding of things will change in the coming weeks and months

Given that they have changed in the past that is very possible, but I think I stand by the vast majority of what I have written

I'd like people to treat what I've written as more of a creative writing exercise than about anything else, although I think I mostly believe in what I have written!

Thank you for reading!

The System

****Some of the older content on this website (such as that which you are viewing right now) contains lots of errors and claims that I no longer believe to be true or accurate. For an up-to-date of the claims I want to make on this site follow this link.****

The world does not run haphazardly or randomly

It is very complicated but not random or chaotic

It works in a certain way

I call the way in which our world works “The System”

The System is the way the world works

Everyone is a part of The System

It is inescapable

It is finely balanced and runs smoothly

And is managed and guided - by both human elites and non-human powers

Even if you try to fight it and resist it you do so as a part of The System

There is no way out

I believe that The System is somewhat guided by God (Specifically The Divine Agency)

Indeed I believe that Madaba’s duties involve tending to The System and making it work in certain ways, in accordance with the plans and desires of The Divine Agency

In the United Kingdom The System can be examined by looking at elites and The Establishment (The Establishment is made up of Elites)

The British Establishment has many factions – but two main wings:

The Left

And The Right

The Left = The Guardian

The Right = The Daily Mail

Remain and Leave!

These two main factions compete for political power although there are other currents

British politics is an interaction between the different elements of these two main factions and between these two main factions themselves - as well as other movements, groups and lobbies

And in the USA there are the two main parties who control the government between them although there are other social and cultural divisions that go beyond party politics

This can be contrasted with the way things work in China, in which The Establishment is unified and centrally controlled in a way that The British Establishment isn't

Each nation has its own System, but they are all parts of a global System

I believe that Madaba controls The System by controlling human elites – members of the various Establishments. As opposed to controlling regular people.

It is impossible to escape The System – even criminals, terrorists and despots have a part to play in The System

Mostly as problems for the authorities to combat

You can no more escape The System than you can stop being a human being

The only way out is death, although I suspect wherever you go would also be governed by a System!

To exist is to be a part of a system

And Madaba is central to how it runs, and he helps administer it according to the instructions of The Divine Agency – as opposed to according to his own wishes

He does not rule, he administrates

Who does rule? - Human elites and The Divine Agency

Not anyone else's

From now on I am going to be a Christian on my own terms

Not anyone else's

But perhaps on Jesus's????

I don't know yet, still thinking about it

Madaba will guide me - he is my Upstairs and I am his Downstairs

I need to meditate on Jesus and what he wants

More to follow

But right now I definitely consider myself a Christian

I am beginning to brew some interesting ideas, in my mind

I will share some of them here at some point

I'm a madman on the internet

That is my calling

This is me doing my job!!!

But I think everything will work out alright in the end and that ultimately I will be vindicated

Now a Christian again!

For while lately I stopped identifying as a Christian, for various reasons

However, I now identify as a Christian because:

1. I worship God with Christians, in a Christian congregation in a Christian church
2. I have Jesus Christ as a moral authority, whose teachings I try to follow

Jesus Christ is my guru, my spiritual master, and I believe him to be divine in nature and that he is alive and active in our world today and very much an immanent presence albeit a mostly invisible one, and I believe his influence to be tangible

I think those two things qualify me as a Christian

I will post a more detailed confession of my personal faith at some later point

Although this whole project is not really about me, I still use it as a place to blog about my own journey and beliefs

Here is a pic of me getting baptized, shortly before the COVID pandemic:

Am I a Christian?

****Some of the older content on this website (such as that which you are viewing right now) contains lots of errors and claims that I no longer believe to be true or accurate. For an up-to-date of the claims I want to make on this site follow this link.****

Am I a Christian?

Short answer: Yes

But allow me to expand!

If there was an historic Jesus then I somewhat doubt that he’d correspond directly to the Jesus of the gospels

But I am pretty sure that such a man did exist, in a way that inspired the gospels

That's just the way my mind works and I cannot readily account for that belief

Although I think it is likely that much has been added to those, as well as much removed and much modified

Did he rise from the dead? I have no idea, I wasn’t there

But I go along with the idea that he did, as a matter of faith

Although granted, the gospels could have been divinely inspired in one way or another

However, I like to imagine that there was such a man, who lived a remarkable and exemplary life and was full of wisdom even if things weren’t exactly as they are recorded as having been in the bible

I also believe that he may have been absorbed into The Divine Agency having finally died

And I am aware that that is not a strictly Christian belief

Now here’s the thing:

If he did truly live as recorded in the bible and all that is true (and I am very open to that being the case indeed I do actually believe that) then I would accept him as my Lord and Saviour:

This is on the condition that he exists (and note “exists” rather than “existed”!)

Which I think is reasonable enough

That would therefore make me a Christian!

If he exists then I believe in him and follow him and if he doesn’t exist or did and is now dead (and therefore not Lord) then I still think he’s a cool character, a cool thought experiment

If he exists then I follow him and to be a Christian you have to believe that he is still alive! 

To be a Christian is to follow Jesus as your Lord, not to simply like a literary character

I mean Batman is a pretty cool guy but he is not my Lord and Saviour and I don't follow his example and teachings although if I did then crime in my local area would be much lower!

If Jesus doesn’t exist and isn’t still alive I’m still a fan, even if he is only fictitious

And on balance I do think Jesus is still alive in an extraordinary way and is therefore Lord

So I think that qualifies me to be able to meaningfully call myself a Christian

And I do so in a way that acknowledges that although I have a degree of doubt I am still willing to make a leap of faith and to live my life in a Christian way

At the end of the day it is about faith and I have faith in Jesus and Christianity as a true and valid path

As far as my daily life goes, I try and live in a Christian way even if a great many of my beliefs are not at all Christian

I suppose I am basically an unorthodox Christian!

So yes, if he is truly out there then he is my Lord and Saviour

And I behave and think as though he is!

And if he isn’t then those stories that feature him are still pretty cool

So yes, I’d say that makes me a Christian

And I am also a member of a Christian church, so I am a Christian in that sense too, as in I am affiliated with a Christian community

And I always take Holy Communion whenever it is on offer, as a means of pledging myself to Jesus and honouring him as my Lord