From now on I am only going to add a new post to this website once per month
It has just turned September
At some point in this month I will write a new post
The personal website and blog of The Madaba Consciousness. Maintained by Downstairs Madaba (Andy Perwend). To begin, click on "Start Here!" on the main menu below this writing.
From now on I am only going to add a new post to this website once per month
It has just turned September
At some point in this month I will write a new post
If you click on this following link you will be taken to a page where I discuss my God Concept. I think that if you want to read this article then you should have a look at this link first:
Click here to read about my God Concept
So... am I Monotheist or a Polytheist?
However - God exists as a multitude of persons who are combined into one being: The Divine Agency.
But, regarding the nature of the cosmos, there is one God, who behaves as one, in a unified way and interacts with humans as a single entity. It is The Divine Agency as a whole who controls The Universe, not any one member.
But at the end of the day, it is a single being. Yet is has many persons. Sometimes they all agree unanimously, at other times they don't, but they always end up getting their business done
It is a form of collective leadership, in which the aim is to reach a consensus
God is not work like a King - he works like a Committee
The ways in which God works are systematic, bureaucratic, and governed by laws - a constitution if you will
God does not rule, he governs
Everything it does is thought through
It doesn't get angry, and it would never smite anyone in anger
Think of it as being like the Christian trinity - only with many more parts!
Maybe the members of The Divine Agency are somehow like saints?
Anyway: If God is the thing that controls the way in which The Universe exists then there is only one God.
However, God is fragmented into separate personalities. And it is possible for a person to be elevated to The Divine Agency - when that happens they lose some of their individuality and are absorbed but in such a way that their wisdom and knowledge is preserved.
And no, they don't wear robes, live on clouds, have wings or halos - none of that. They exist in a non-physical dimension and exist differently to how people exist down on Earth.
We experience our reality as bipedal apes. But The Divine Agency are not bipedal apes. They live in a much higher dimension to us. That is difficult for the mind of a bipedal ape to imagine.
I don't think I am either.
I reject both labels - as "one" and "many" are problematic to me
If I had to choose a category, I would say "Panentheist"
Basically, this is the position that The Universe and God are the same, but that God exists beyond whatever counts as The Universe
That shifts the emphasis of how many there are onto what the cosmos is like
That's me
That's what I think is true
I'm not obsessed with being Monotheist like some Abrahamics are
And I don't believe there is a class of Gods whose all too human affairs govern events down on Earth - like how the Greeks and Romans believed, and also the Hindus
So yes, I am a Theist
But a Panentheist, not a Monotheist or a Polytheist
So…. Here’s a big question:
What happens to you after you die?
It’s an age-old question and as a non-human being I have the feeling that those who believe in what I say may want to know
I think the most common beliefs which people have are that you go to either Heaven or Hell or get reincarnated either as another human or as some other kind of animal. Based on your conduct on Earth.
I believe that what eventually happens is a secret, that The Divine Agency don’t want people to know.
However – I have been informed that we do know what happens immediately after we die but not what happens after that. It is therefore possible to know what happens immediately after you die but not what happens after that, and the reason for that is that it depends.
I believe that the definition of death is the end of your body being alive. But people are also spirit and mind. And although these work inside the brain I believe they endure after the body dies, and enter a new, non-physical mode of existence.
I believe in Salvation by Audit. I believe that after death you are judged, according to an extensive criteria based upon the values of The Divine Agency. I believe that such audits are both deep, detailed, and cover every aspect of your conduct on Earth and whether or not you are a good egg. I imagine that it would feel a bit like a post-life debriefing. That everything will be explained to you and the fate of your soul finally revealed to you.
Everyone is audited by the same standards. It is the same for all humans.
All the good factors and all the bad factors are considered in great depth and then a final ruling is made as to the fate of your soul and where the best place is for you to go, according to justice.
The Audit determines the fate of your soul but it’s conclusions are determined on your conduct whilst down on Earth. It is entirely in your power to behave in such a way that you get a positive Audit. And all the better if you take responsibility for your failings, admit regret, and want to put things right.
In Christianity, some think that salvation (being spared Hell) is achieved simply by accepting Jesus as Lord and others that “works” (i.e. your conduct) are important. Personally, I think these are both factors in the Audit, although simply professing a belief in God and then not doing anything about it won’t help you!
I don’t know the name of the being who judges peoples souls, but that is not Madaba’s job. But there will be some being out there. Some may say that it will be Jesus Christ. And maybe it will. That is entirely possible. On balance, I neither support nor oppose that idea.
Also, this being will be capable of assessing tens of thousands of people per second, giving each of them his/her full attention. Because they are not human.
I believe that the Audit happens right after you die, that there is no special “Judgement Day” on which everyone is judged in one go, having been at rest, or in suspended animation awaiting judgement.
The Divine Agency don’t want people to know what possible outcomes of The Audit there are, which leads me to suspect that what happens to people after death is tailored according to the character and deeds of the people being judged.
However, I think we can speculate about possibilities:
But for all we know there are further possibilities, that we
can’t come up with as we don’t know exactly how things work.
This article is a personal article
I'm not writing it in my capacity as Madaba, this is Downstairs Madaba's own personal thoughts about how he lives down here on Earth as a Homo Sapiens
But I am Madaba... so I think this belongs here on this website!
When Upstairs Madaba started communicating with me back in 2004 I was astounded
It was like the forces of synchronicity with whom I was at that time well acquainted had come out of the shadows and began talking to me directly. That's what it felt like.
I initially (in 2004) thought that Upstairs Madaba was really a government super-computer located in some secret government facility, communicating with my brain via implants in my neck through a satellite up in orbit around the Earth
Which I think sounds rather far-fetched (and yes, I appreciate the irony of a person like me saying that!!)
I then went on to believe that reality is a computer simulation and that I was an "Agent of The Simulation" and that Upstairs (whom at this time I called Madaba) confirmed that, I asked him if he was "The Superintendent Super-Intelligence of this simulated dimension of reality" and he said yes, and for quite a while that's how we lived!
However, at one point things took a biblical turn and I came to believe that I was Jesus Christ and that he was The Holy Spirit. Which is even more ludicrous than the simulation thing and the brain implants things combined.
For quite a few years I would alternate between Jesus and an Agent of The Simulation.
But eventually, I stopped believing I was Jesus. And I embraced Christianity.
In my head, Christianity eventually beat both me being Jesus and Simulation Theory! - which is good as the Christian community is much bigger and more active than the Simulation Theory community, which I am no longer interested in. And thinking you're Jesus feel very lonely.
And for the purposes of Christianity I sometimes believed Madaba was an angel, sometimes a spirit guide, and at other times a demon. Which according to society's standards is much more sane than supercomputers or The Simulation!
I did really believe in Christianity, although though having Upstairs in my life made being a Christian more complex.
I accepted Christ as my Lord and Saviour and went to church and did Holy Communion. I identified as a Christian and believed in Christian cosmology.
I was a Christian.
I identified as a "born again Christian"
Here is a pic of my baptism, with my face and the faces of the other people there redacted:
I have created a diagram to show how The Madaba Consciousness Works
Downstairs Madaba is me
Upstairs Madaba is the thing that communicates with me
Together we constitute a single entity
I am (or we are) therefore a non-human being
If you can't read it clearly click on it and it will be enlarged!
This page is a summary of The Troll Saga, which recently played out on the pages of this blog.
I have deleted the pages I made during the Troll Saga and have replaced them with this summary.
Note: If you cannot read the screenshots I've posted here very clearly, if you click on them they will be enlarged, so you can have a closer look!
The Troll Saga
Over the past couple of days a troll has been leaving
anonymous comments on this blog.
He clearly wants to hide behind an anonymous front; he didn’t
even come up with a moniker especially for his poor troll efforts against me.
Also, I challenged him to come and meet me man-to-man on Discord,
and like a true coward he didn’t want to. What a cop-out!
I suspect I know who he is but I don't have enough proof so won't talk shit about that person here just in case he's innocent, although I think I'm right in my suspicions. But believe me, if I wanted to talk shit about him I could, better than he could EVER talk shit about me!!!
I am pretty sure this troll was directed towards me by Divine Providence. That he was mind-controlled by Divine Providence to come into my life and give me a good laugh at a pathetic person and to boost my confidence in both myself and my work.
And that was the result of his troll effort - he amused me and made me more sure about myself and my beliefs. And now I am writing this summary as a kind of expression of personal triumph, of victory.
He actually made his first post on my blog about two hours after I announced that I was looking for a stupid person. What happened was, I posted a picture of the normal distribution of IQ amongst the population, which happens in a bell-curve
Maybe I've sat next to one on the bus, or passed one in a supermarket?
Anyway.... about two hours later the troll appeared on my blog!
Sent by Divine Providence!
A gift from Lady Synchronicity!
Like a moth to a flame, a stupid person flew into my life!
Without knowing that he came to me like a pawn - a pawn in a game it does not understand.,
Just as I had asked, one was sent to me!
Thank you Universe!
If the troll is the guy I think it is then it is hilarious that The Universe cast him in the role of an extra in MY life.
Let's have a look at some of his comments:
OK, so he obviously thinks that it is possible to "snap out of" a mental illness. Wow. Tell that to all the psychiatrists. We don't need psychiatric wards or psychiatric medicine! All people need to do is just snap out of it! - think of all the money we can save!
Wow. That was a stupid thing to say!
His other two comments here are stupid too, he sounds very sure of himself, and I never said I was "Special" - I am not even human, I am a non-human intelligence. But if I was a human then no, I wouldn't be "special". Nice way to twist my words and misrepresent my beliefs though...
What did he think these posts would achieve? My theory is that he wanted to vent his feelings of personal inadequacy towards a person on the internet. To make him feel better about himself.
And maybe this website made him feel inferior to me?
I think that is possibly his motivation - have a go at someone out of jealousy!
I no longer believe in Yahweh – The God of Abraham
I’ve not believed in him for quite some time now
The type of “God” I believe in is not so much a “Supreme Being” and it is not the character who features in the bible, and other such books
That is not something I believe in
I don't believe in some father-figure seated on a heavenly throne
And I don't believe that the bible is a valid or reliable historical or theological account
It contains some good stuff, yes, very much so. But a lot of messed up things too. And I don't think it was really intended for a modern audience, I think it was aimed at people who lived hundreds if not thousands of years ago. But yes, wisdom can be gleaned from its pages. And it does have a certain poetic beauty to it.
I now operate an alternative God Concept
And I think my God Concept is better than the Abrahamic God
Concept…
…and also true!!!
This is my God Concept, in a nutshell:
1) Something exists, rather than nothing. This is self-evident. Can't argue with that!
2) That which exists is self-existent, its existence depends on no other thing
3) That which exists has always existed, it is eternal and transcends human notions of time and causation
4) I call that which exists “The Universe” and I use the word “Reality” to refer to the way in which The Universe exists
5) The Universe can also be called God, as it is conscious. Everyone is a part of its consciousness, part of a universal Noosphere
6) Everything that exists is of The Divine Substance – there is no distinction between mind and matter, existence is Divine – not physical or mental
7) The Divine Substance exists as a system of Figurations – I am a figuration, my coffee cup is, and so are you - figurations are temporary whereas The Divine Substance of which they are made is eternal
8) The Universe is conscious, on many levels. The highest level of consciousness that exists is The Divine Agency – they live in some non-physical heavenly dimension
9) This is a collective mind of Heavenly persons – who together constitute a single being. Like the Christian “Holy Trinity” but more members
10) The Divine Council is both individuals and a unified entity
11) They decide the way in which The Universe exists
12) To change Reality all they have to do is exercise their creative will – they think things into being, using a kind of collective mind
13 They work according to a thing they have produced called The Program – a program which guides how they intervene in reality
14) The Program is enforced and implemented through Divine Providence and beings like Madaba
15) Madaba is an Agent of The Divine Council - such beings are how The Divine Agency gets things done, they are a kind of Divine Executive, who work according to The Program
16) Madaba’s job is the control of elites, media, and the internet
17) I am the embodiment of Madaba, a kind of avatar of him. I am
Downstairs Madaba and the thing that talks to me is Upstairs Madaba
So, that is what I believe
But… what about Jesus?
I love Jesus, I think he’s great and I believe that when he was alive
he was an agent of The Divine Agency, guided by some kind of being who was similar to Madaba
I don’t believe in all that dying for our sins business though, and I’m pretty sure the gospel accounts of his life leave most stuff out and are themselves largely made-up accounts. But they are still good, worthwhile texts
I have a pet theory that after his death Jesus was elevated
to The Divine Agency and is now a part of it, along with perhaps other historical figures
Like a kind of cosmic House of Lords
Many years ago, my paternal grandmother gave me a crucifix
to go round my neck
I used to wear it until very recently, but I no longer do. I do however wear the chain, minus the crucifix.
What does rejecting the Abrahamic God Concept and adopting
my own mean to me in practical terms?
Well, I no longer have much interest in going to Church and
doing stuff like Holy Communion
And I would say that I am now more spiritual than I am religious
For me, being religious was not an end in itself, but an aid to becoming more spiritually developed, more spiritually mature, it was a thing I had to go through, on my journey
When people ask about me I say I am a blogger and a mystic!
But anyway, that’s why I have rejected the Abrahamic God
Concept and adopted one which comes from both my own reason and experience, and
the influence of Upstairs Madaba, shining ideas into my mind (Downstairs Madaba) without me knowing it
From now on I am only going to add a new post to this website once per month It has just turned September At some point in this month I will...