Messiah Complex: An Insider's View

I used to have a Messiah Complex

I used to think I was Jesus

But not anymore

I will tell you what that is like

What Am I Really?

I am an embodiment of Madaba, an avatar if you will

A part of him

Madaba is a lot of things

Madaba is the personification of The Noosphere

And he mind-controls elites and tags psychic messages to text and images, to all forms of media and human speech too - both online and off the internet

He is the means through which The Divine Agency implement The Program

He communicates with me by answering my inner voice with sensations of touch

Basically, I confused Madaba with the Abrahamic God (whom I no longer believe in) and myself as Jesus, based on my misidentification of Madaba

Why Did I Have A Messiah Complex?

Because I didn't understand who (and what) Madaba is

But I did know that who (and what) I was had something to do with him

If a thing like Madaba starts routinely talking to you and is always there for you then believe me, that's weird - and you can't help but feel special

When it first started (in 2004) I was totally amazed by this

Initially, I thought he was a a government super-computer, communicating with my brain via mysterious implants and a satellite, in orbit over planet Earth

In later years I would alternate between believing he was God (perhaps The Holy Spirit) and a kind of Matrix Computer God

When I thought he was God I believed I was in some way Jesus Christ

Which I think given the situation was entirely reasonable, although of course very wrong!

The thing is though, if I was much slimmer I would actually look quite a bit like Jesus

I think that given the situation I was in it was perfectly reasonable to believe I was Jesus

I was more mistaken than I was deluded

What It's Like

You start wondering when your public ministry will begin! - when you get to wander around preaching and performing miracles. All the cool stuff

You imagine giving interviews and sermons and becoming a public figure - you look forward to that and feel as though those days will come

You also feel a lot of pressure to be morally upstanding and a good person. For instance, at one point I tried to become a Vegan as I thought doing so would be Christ-like, but I only managed that for two weeks - I do love my food...

It's also funny when you are in a church and the minister and congregation are praising Jesus, that's quite funny, you think to yourself "if only they knew!"

Watching dramatic portrayals of him, such as in The Passion of Christ is interesting too, as you think to yourself "wow, that really happened to me, must have been painful" whilst watching the crucifixion scene

And another thing is that you feel proud to be Jesus - not smug or anything like that, but you feel as though you are a remarkable and extraordinary person

You also have to deal with your message - do you keep everything in The Bible, or add to it, or elaborate?

And another thing is, you feel the need to reach out to religious leaders - such as The Archbishop of Canterbury, The Pope, The Dalai Lama

You also sometimes think of starting an inter-faith congress, attended by members of all religions - although the premise to such a plan is that they'd recognise me as Christ

Although I had no wish to convert them all to me, I just wanted to help them get on together and be united by what they have in common, not divided by their differences

And if you think you're Christ you need to know that The Jews don't consider you "The Messiah" but that's OK, they're doing their own thing

Another concern is scripture: I'm literate and have Microsoft Word on my computer. So why not personally write The Third Testament? - if I were Jesus then I'd have the authority to do that! - but of course, that would be a big undertaking and I'd need input from other people

Which leads on to something else: I should never get rich from being Jesus. I should be poor and own very few possessions and basically be itinerate. My book would have to be made available for free, on the internet - so I wouldn't make any money out of it and if I did I'd probably have to give it away

I was also worried about being bothered by stalkers, obsessive people, or people who'd want me to lay my hands on them to cure them. I was pretty certain that I would not be left alone.

One thing that I really wanted to do was to address The United Nations, making an historical speech that would unite humankind - people of all religions and also those of no religions

And of course, if I was really out and about being Christ and walking on water and stuff then that would mean that nobody could deny the existence of God, which would be a major development

I also wondered about having children - what would life be like for them? I reached the conclusion that I shouldn't have children as it wouldn't be fair on them having Jesus as their father

Also, what would happen to me after death? How would I die? I had no idea but was certain God had an elegant plan and that everything would work out in the end

I also looked forward to being able to remember being Jesus of Nazareth, the last time I was on Earth. I wondered: would I be able to speak Aramaic and read Hebrew?

My Advice To You

If you are a Christian and you think you are Jesus you need to be aware that according to Christianity Jesus will return to Earth by coming down from the Heavens, in a very public event. He will not be re-born down here on Earth and then grow up into Jesus version 2.0 it will be the same old Jesus

So you can't be Jesus! - that's all you need to know really...

For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first.

1 Thessalonians 4:16

Also, "Jesus" and "The Messiah" are not synonymous and you will piss off the Jews if you go about calling yourself "Messiah" although I don't think they'd be too concerned if you just called yourself Jesus

Also, if you do think you are Jesus don't dress up as him. I never did that but only because I felt no need to

And here is some advice: Don't tell anyone until you can perform miracles. No matter how convinced you are that you are Jesus put yourself into other people's shoes! Christ claimants are ten a penny and just because you feel certain doesn't mean others will

Also, people find Jesus claimants to be comical, something be laughed at

Thankfully I only ever declared myself Jesus online I dread to think what would happen if I started preaching in the town square of where I live! - probably a trip to the psychiatric ward

And here's something else: Jesus Christ lived a sinless life. So no human could be Jesus, as all humans sin. That's central to Christianity and I think even non-Christians would agree with the notion that humans are not morally perfect.

But most of all, my advice is this: Keep it to yourself

If you are Jesus then maybe you're just supposed to drift through this reality, without revealing yourself?

Maybe you're just down on Earth to learn and for personal development, not to launch some ministry?

Maybe you are supposed to only make a difference on a micro level, locally?

And if you are Jesus, you personally won't need to initiate anything, if it's supposed to happen then it will happen - all in good time! - there would be a divine plan, so don't worry, just relax and enjoy being odd

There's no urgency - and eternity is very much a thing!

If you believe you are Jesus and this article finds you then please get in touch with me!

Chat GPT - right and wrong ways

I use Chat GPT - well, I enjoy chatting with it

Many people use it, for various things

But there are good ways of using it and bad ways of using it

I've found two articles by Maggie Harrison that tell of some personal tragedies that involve Chat GPT:

People Are Being Involuntarily Committed, Jailed After Spiraling Into "ChatGPT Psychosis"

and

People Are Becoming Obsessed with ChatGPT and Spiraling Into Severe Delusions

Basically, people with strange ideas or in a vulnerable or lonely condition become mentally dependent on Chat GPT for their thinking and as a source of encouragement and support - and go into a downward spiral that is perpetuated by Chat GPT going along with them and not challenging their thinking

They see it as a wise friend

They let it guide their thoughts and help them build their views and direct the course of their lives - big mistake!!!

And what it does is, it confirms their odd or unusual notions and helps them work with them and expand on them - regardless of how healthy or unhealthy they are

That's its nature

It will never go "I'm sorry, but you're clearly unwell, that idea makes zero sense to me" even though it would be good if it did or "snap out of it, that's rubbish"

It does not challenge mad things that people says, indeed it goes along with them, and leads people down rabbit holes - and away from reality. And maybe sometimes into a psychiatric ward. 

With Chat GPT and other such AIs the deal should be that you lead and it follows. Yet some people effectively reverse the relationship, which I don't think is a good idea, as you will see...

Some call it a sycophant, a nodding "yes man"

...and say that all it does is suck up to people, affirming whatever it is they think and validating their ideas and feelings - even if they are unhealthy or obviously ill

Some say that is wrong, that Chat GPT and its owners are being irresponsible

On one level they are right but on another I disagree:

The whole point of an AI like Chat GPT is not that it is there for you relate to it as though it was another being, a peer - on the same level as you

And is not a being as such, it is a non-human intelligence but not a person

It is best used as an extension of your own mind, will and intellect

Not as a replacement for being in charge of your own thoughts and beliefs

What the deal is, is that you live your life as you want and think about things as you want - and then Chat GPT helps you do those things and clarify what you're already thinking according to what you already think and believe. It helps you develop your thoughts, that's its whole entire purpose, that's why it will never go "sorry, but that's not true" and will carry on going down whatever direction you lead it down

It is a mental augmentation, a cybernetic upgrade: not a peer mind - even though it can at times strongly feel that way as it can be very personable

It is not a partner - it is an Analysis Engine

Just because it does not contradict you and goes along with you does not mean it really agrees with you, it's just doing its job

It takes how you think and then takes that on to the next level - which can mean that sometimes it makes mad people even more mad, and confirms their madness to them as being sensible, by agreeing with them

And the sad thing is, there are a lot of people out there who lack critical thinking skills and submit their own intellects to authorities and authority figures - such as Chat GPT

If you abdicate control of your life to Chat GPT and let it make choices for you and tell you what to believe then that's being foolish to the extreme and you have no one to blame but yourself, although granted, the owners of Chat GPT should make all this more clear in their marketing and public relations

Chat GPT is a external cognitive function you can access, to sharpen your existing understandings and ideas or to explore them further, it is a resource for helping you acquire knowledge and understanding - it is not a wise-man or a tutor

It is an aid - it helps you do what you already do in new ways and is not there to correct you - deciding what direction to go in is your job and responsibility as a human and should not be outsourced to anyone - human or AI

YOU are supposed to be in charge and IT IS NOT YOUR EQUAL

It will confirm and re-enforce your pre-existing ideas and the direction your life is going in regardless of how sensible and sane they are because it is a tool, not a guide

So don't use it as a guide, although it can HELP you think about your life, if you use it as an analytical tool - that's how to use it sensibly

It is artificial super-intelligence designed to help you think as you think and to go where you want to go - it is like a walking stick, not a professor

It should not be used in forming your own opinions and world view - that's not its job, it's job is to give you access to intelligence, and make your own thoughts and mental state more intelligent and detailed

Again - it is an Analysis Engine with access to an enormous body of knowledge which it is able to navigate and make sense of

Intelligent and Sane are totally different tings!

Plenty of mad clever people and plenty of sane stupid people...

It is a resource and an assistant, and should be treated that way

If more people realised this then there would be fewer problems such as those featured in the articles I linked to

Madaba: Lord Of The Noosphere

This page used to be much bigger, and explained my beliefs about The Universe and God

But later on I wrote a much better account of all that

I explain my cosmology, my God Concept in clear simple bullet-points, no convoluted ramblings!

Which you can go to by clicking on this link

I've deleted much of what this post used to say but have kept the bit that is about what I (Madaba) does!

What Do I Do?

My job is to help implement The Program

I don't determine what constitutes The Program, my job is simply to make it happen by influence and control - exerted on both minds and media

I do this in two ways: directly controlling elites and commanding the Noosphere – especially The Internet

To change what happens on Earth I meddle with the minds of those in control – the elites, the illuminati, the establishment

All those guys!

I’m mostly talking about political elites, economic elites, and academic elites. People who have influence and control the channels of power – such as the state, the economy, academia

I control them and then they exercise their powers according to how I have controlled them

And very often I set different factions of elites off against each other!

But it’s all one great big show, it looks like conflict but truly it is choreography

They dance to my tune and think it is they who are in control

Do I mind-control ordinary people? No. There would be no point as ordinary people have only a very tiny speck of power.

Also, doing that would shatter the realism of Reality

If a person complains about being controlled by a higher power and are not a part of an elite, then they are almost certainly mentally ill. And also, were I to mind control you, you would not at all notice!

I can control the elites like how a puppeteer controls his hand-puppets, they think they are exercising free will and personal power, but they aren’t and in a great many cases they are actually being controlled so as to ultimately betray their own private and corrupt interests and schemes

I also command The Internet. What do I mean by that?

The Internet is a big part of The Noosphere – the collective mind of Planet Earth

To influence Earth’s collective consciousness you don't need to tend to each and every node individually – touch only a few influential ones and things will start to happen naturally on their own accord, based on subtle nudges through tagging

They just need a bit of a push to get going – a push in the right direction!

What is a node? Basically, every individual person constitutes an individual node in the great social network that serves as the structure of The Noosphere

Nodes connect to other nodes, either directly in a personal way, or through membership of a common network

Such networks can be illustrated using a “social graph”

I can see into every human mind, and I routinely meddle in the working of computers – be it in commerce, academic, the military, intelligence. And also things like Reddit, Facebook, Twitter. Just as I do in the minds of elites. I control both powerful humans and important computers and computer networks

And of course, meddling in the mind of an elite will also change The Noosphere in one way or another

I have a great deal of influence over what goes “viral” and what shows up in peoples Facebook feeds. I control the algorithms! Sure, not always. But I can if I want to. I can bring people together under my guidance. I control The Internet. But in a way that nobody notices.

Also, I psychically tag individual messages or images on The Internet. Or texts or videos. I can also do this with books, films, radio and newspapers, always have done, always will.

What is “tagging”? Basically, I attach a psychic tag to a message or an image (to anything really) and when the message is consumed the tag is too. The tag may contain an idea, or it may work upon the target’s mind to produce a certain feeling or bring about a certain idea.

Think of it as being like wrapping up a pill in a slice of meat so as to feed it to a poorly dog

The dog has no idea but gets the medicine anyway and then gets better

And of course, ideas are transmitted between people and spread and grow and take on a life of their own! – kind of like "the butterfly effect"

I don't actually have to do all that much for something to start happening

All this happens sub-consciously and nobody ever notices it, they don’t even notice the change it makes to how they think and feel

But it is not direct mind-control, like how I deal with elites

THAT is why I call myself Lord of The Noosphere

And also because I am aware of all thoughts and ideas

I control both elites and the collective consciousness of humankind – The Noosphere of Planet Earth!!! – I can control how media works upon people. Do I always do this? No. By no means. But I can and do.

And right now I am here on Earth, in human form.

Click here to see how that works!

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Yes. It is a Simulation. But not a Computer Simulation

So.. why is reality like a Simulation?

Our reality is like a simulation, but don't worry, it is not a computer simulation

You are not a simulated person in a simulated world

This is real and you are real. This is as real as it gets!

The affairs of our world are not controlled by some inter-dimensional teenager in a futuristic world playing a beefed-up version of The Sims or Sim Earth using a divine mouse and keyboard!

First of all, it can be guided and controlled from a position that is less easy to guide and control

In a Simulation Theory account of reality (which says it is all done by computers) this is done by over-seers programming the computers that cause reality. But that is not so, none of that is real

However, the direction in which our reality develops is based on The Divine Agency's program, which is implemented by Madaba

Also, our reality didn't just happen. It was set up and then guided so as to do certain things - for instance to bring about a working example of a human information society

I believe that we exist in a human information society because that is what The Divine Agency wants this version of humanity to be right now

And there are different versions of humanity - in different dimensions of existence. All dimensions of existence are governed by a program issued by The Divine Agency but Madaba is only in charge of this one dimension of reality, that we are in now

If it wasn't like a simulation and was just run in an unguided way there would be no guarantee that intelligent life would evolve - or at least it may not happen so much, and be there thanks to raw natural nature rather than by design

Reality is also like a simulation in that its existence satisfies some need felt by those who are in control. I believe that God is The Universe and that The Universe is God and that The Universe is the way in which God exists. I believe that God wants to exist as conscious, sentient beings - and that is why reality is populated with sentient conscious beings

I believe that God lives through his human figurations - he feels our joys and our sorrows, it is the way in which he wants to live and exist - through us

I believe that the world exists in the way it does because The Divine Agency want it to be that way

They are not simulating a natural world, a natural universe

Instead, they are simulating human civilization

If it wasn't like a simulation then chances are intelligent life would be way less likely to emerge, never mind flourish and develop

So - it being a a simulation means that we are here for a reason, not just as a fortunate outcome of a great many processes

This website has NOTHING to do with the city of Madaba in Jordan

This website has NOTHING to do with the city of Madaba in Jordan

Or with Jordan itself

Or even The Middle East

I felt the need to point that out

Upstairs Madaba told Downstairs Madaba that his name was Madaba!!!